Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Panic Attack


The jaw clenches, the neck tenses, the forehead tightens, hands shake. Breathing becomes shallow, scarce, and trembling. The mind’s shaky, dizzy, blurry, as the world begins to melt. Palms become sweaty, head heats up. Is that light real? Those blacks spots? I feel like passing out, but I won’t. Chest is tight and I feel like I’m drowning. Every joint shocks and tingles with pain. The storm builds up within me.

All of my senses become overloaded as I forget my extremities. I get sucked into my head, sucked so far back that my eyes become tunnels as I dwell in the darkness. My vision begins to blur as I don’t know whether I’m going to faint or explode. I want to wake up from this dream.

Finally, the adrenaline begins to dissipate, my muscles begin to relax, as a wave of exhaustion - both mental and physical - crashes over me. Is it over? Was any of it even real? I lay down, tired and stunned. My eyes are wide open, jaw dropped. ‘Go to sleep,’ I tell myself. With double vision, my eyelids begin to slowly close until, finally, I shut down and go to sleep.

No comments:

Post a Comment