The bitter-sweetness of depression and love... Feeling two things that oppose one another simultaneously... Listening to sad songs that are beautiful... It's hard to stand with one foot in one world and the other foot in another. Contradictions are both natural and unnatural, their very nature contradictory, and yet there is some strange sense of purpose and meaning behind them oft enough. Paradoxes, mirrors, asynchrony, ambivalence. Logically speaking, they shouldn't both be able to exist, and yet somehow they do. There can be as much tangible nature to both things, things which oppose the other's very existence. Yin and yang... Darkness allows light as much as light allows darkness, and yet each opposes the existence of the other. Night and day, light and dark, love and hate, war and peace.
My sadness allows my happiness to exist, and my happiness is payment for my sadness. I could forever dwell on the unfairness of my depressions, or I can see my depressions as the price I pay to experience happiness. Everything good costs at least something bad, and everything bad can reward with something good.
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